Kurt Lockwood - Kurt's Journal

SATIVA ROSE!! HEATHER GABLES!! JOEY SILVERA!! & KURT LOCKWOOD (click for pixxx!)
" I sing the body electric. The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them, they will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them, and discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul."

-Walt Whitman, I Sing The Body Electric, Leaves of Grass

"And if there is one thing more that I must say to you, it is this: Do not believe that he who seeks to comfort you lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life has much difficulty and sadness and remains far behind yours."

-Ranier Maria Rilke, LETTERS TO A YOUNG POET

Hey everybody!

Welcome back. Today I shot another scene for industry legend, Director Joey Fuckin' Silvera. I got to shoot a menage a trois with myself and two young, new ladies to the business, the very hot latina SATIVA ROSE and (Jill Kelly lookalike) HEATHER GABLES. The twist of the scene was that it was SATIVA being VERY aggressive with HEATHER and me just sort of taking a back seat while SATIVA forcefully made HEATHER do all sorts of dirty things (which she loved!)
Well, yesterday I went to Porstar Karaoke and embarrassed myself thru versions of "Word Up" by Cameo and "Kiss" by Prince. Tonight, it's off to the SPEARMINT RHINO GENLEMAN"s CLUB (yep, it's a stip joint) to see JKP girl TYLER FAITH feature dance. I get my car back tomorrow, too. I'll try to update again tomorrow but I'm taking the day off so expect more xxx goodness when I shoot again on Saturday, a four-way with my JESSICA DARLING, LONNIE (a girl) and my good bud MARC DAVIS out on a yacht in Catamaran (I hope I'm spelling that right!)

peace and love

KURT LOCKWOOD

p.s. I saw "The Passion of the Christ" last night and was just totally fucking blown-away. Yes, the violence is ultra-graphic but if that's how it REALLY was then I want to see it. It is shot beautifully, there are some disturbing CGI special effect shots in it, like when children teasing JUDAS turn into demons. My favorite moment of the film and perhaps the story itself, is the next to last thing Jesus says before he dies, "My God...why hast thou forsaken me?" It is in that which Mick Jagger once described as "Jesus Christ, had his moment of doubt and shame..." In that moment we are all Christ struggling with the issue of faith. This is so important to me because "HE DOESN"T FUCKING KNOW!!' It's Jesus, he's on the cross, about to die for all of our sins, and he has a crisis of faith. It is in this moment, that Martin Scorcese chose to base the entire movie "The Last Temptation of Christ." Of course, as we all know, Christ finds his faith with his final words, "God...into your hands I commend my spirit." That's not something reserved for the Son of God, that's for ALL of us. In the end there are no superstars, no celebrities, no one is more special. We all pray to commend our spirit to God after death and to me...that's punk.

Kurt on February 26th, 2025

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